More Adventuring

Despite the heat this weekend (yesterday it got up to 90 degrees), Chad and I got in another hike in the Cleveland National Forest. (If you’re wondering where Bella was, she was at home completely rejecting any physical activity after ten hours of track practice a week, and lounging around watching One Tree Hill on her laptop.)

This time we didn’t pass the Candy Store, we just parked directly across from it and took the Upper San Juan Loop trail. (The Candy Store was a bust. Good for a cold can of soda and an ice cream bar – but pathetic selection of candy. Just bite the bullet and call yourself what you are: Mountain Mini-Mart.)

And although the hike was only just over two miles, the heat and the climbing gave us enough of a workout to be satisfying. We managed to avoid all the poison oak and didn’t swallow any bugs, although there were plenty to be swallowed. We also managed to eat our chocolate and oranges by the water again.  And again we were completely alone on the trail. Where are all the people who belong to the cars in the trailhead parking lot? We even managed to forget our camera again.

But this time we thought to pull out our cellphones for pics. The images are small and fuzzy (I am so over my RAZR), but they do give an impression of how pleasant our day was together. I took the top three pics and Chad took the rest. He did better with the “landscapes” (I used quotations, because can a tree butthole be considered a landscape?)

My photo of Chad.

Chad’s photo of me.

Chad must have stopped for a pee break, because I don’t recollect ever being that far ahead of him on this hike – or on any hike for that matter…

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The Business of Being Born

Next week is our last Bradley class (natural childbirth) and Chad and I had a small marathon today, finishing up a few borrowed birth videos, including The Business of Being Born (IMDb 6.9/10.0).

I liked the movie, but considering that Bella was born at home with a midwife and that we are anticipating another home birth (in six weeks), this documentary by Ricki Lake was preaching to the choir, because I think that it’s really meant to convey information to people who don’t know much about home birth. In fact, one of the dads interviewed revealed the appalling lack of awareness about midwifery in this country when he said that he thought a midwife was what you used when you wanted to give birth in a barn!

I wholeheartedly support birth with midwives and home birth and I think that it’s a damn shame that less than 1% of babies in the United States are born at home, especially when the rates are so much higher in western Europe and Japan (where infant and maternal mortality is lower. ) So, I absolutely support Ricki Lake in producing this film; however, I did have some issues with how the medical establishment was represented. I believe that the cultural biases towards scheduled c-sections, epidurals, pitocin, short “easy” labors – are just that: cultural biases, that stem from many different sources – but I am not convinced that the problems stem from doctors (or hospitals) wanting to make more money.

I come from a pretty medical family – by that I mean, both of my parents were doctors, one grandfather was a doctor, two of my uncles are doctors, four aunts (and uncles) married doctors, and two cousins are now practicing medicine. (Whew – I’d never counted that before.) And besides vacationing with doctors and their families most of my life, I also worked in the medical school applications office at Georgetown University one summer while I was in college. You know what I discovered? That doctors are just people. Generally, extremely hard-working, career-driven, focused people, true – but rarely were they greedy or lazy, which I feel this movie implies.

Doctors are highly trained and (hopefully) highly skilled professionals, and generally I think they try and make the best medical decisions for you when you are sick.

But seeing as I don’t consider pregnancy, labor, or birth to be in the realm of sickness, I believe that most of the time having a doctor attend a birth is overkill. Furthermore, I think that you are actually at risk of being treated as if you are ill if you do have a birth in a hospital. If you don’t want to be treated like you are sick, stay out of the hospital. I also believe that nobody is going to care about our baby’s birth as much as Chad and I do – I do not expect the doctor to care about much more than my physical well-being – so if I want my birth experience to be serene, nurturing, loving, and amazing, I consider it Chad ‘s and my responsibility to make it so. And the best place for for creating that kind of birth for us in in our own home.

I think the level of compassion we expect doctors to have is beyond reasonable, much in the same way we expect too much from public school teachers. When I was teaching, I could emotionally understand that a parent wanted the best for his or her kid, but realistically, that kid was one of 150 kids I had in class each day. I could give a kid only so much before it started to subtract from what was going to another kid (or my own at home). For a doctor too, you are going to be one of many, many patients he or she will see that day. I think that’s just the reality that needs to be faced when you see a doctor. This does not mean that a patient (or student) should not be treated with utmost respect, but just that if you want a specific, individualized (read: with high spiritual or emotional content) experience, you’ll probably have to make it for yourself.

Darn – I did not intend to rant. Kudos to Ricki Lake and Abby Epstein for making this film; however, I guess I was a little disappointed in the depth of coverage. We need another film: one that goes beyond doctors/hospitals = bad; midwives/homebirth = good.

And WHY would they end a pro-homebirth documentary with a homebirth that ended up being an emergency hospital transport? (The mother went into labor six weeks in advance of her due date – that fact has been haunting me today, because I’m six weeks away too. Stay inside a while longer little baby!)

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More Hiking

Last weekend, Chad and I drove up Modjeska Canyon near where the fires had been last year and found that the trail we wanted was closed indefinitely (The Hardy Trail). We spent a rambling bit of time strolling in the Tucker Wildlife Sanctuary (run by Cal Fullerton) and then browsed in the bookstore, found another hike, and took off.

We ended up at the end of the 241 toll road and Oso at a park (Riley Park) neither of us had even known existed. There were lots of cars in the parking lot but very few people on the trail. The tall grasses and blooming sheets of yellow and purple were gorgeous and I wish my camera could have done them justice.

Shoot – you can’t even make out the purple flowers in these pics. But you do get a good feel for the open expanse. I imagined it was a little like hiking on the heath in the UK, but drier.

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Book Clubless

I have detached myself from both book clubs at this point: the first one, because it was falling apart anyway and a two-hour drive to boot, the other, well, I just couldn’t get over the political spam I kept receiving from one of the members of the group. When in doubt, I usually turn to the Man Booker Prize winners – but I’d forgotten that until just now.

It seems that everyone has become so busy that even my old stand-by avid reader friends don’t have a recommendation for me. How about my librarian husband you ask? Well, he’s still making his way through Pynchon’s Against the Day (which I have no interest in tackling) and otherwise he’s just read Katherine Neville’s The Eight (which wasn’t as good as the hype he says) and Marcus Reeves’ Somebody Scream!: Rap Music’s Rise to Prominence in the Aftershock of Black Power (which I feel like I’ve almost read by virtue of having now listened to the music of all the featured rap artists via Chad’s regularly updated new 160 gig).

So I have resorted to asking strangers for book suggestions – well, he’s practically a stranger, but I was curious to hear what a recent MFA Poetry grad from UCI might recommend. And so far it’s been an interesting way of choosing a read.

For fiction, he recommended We Need To Talk About Kevin by Lionel Shriver, In Revere, In Those Days by Roland Merullo, and Then We Came To The End by Joshua Ferris.

For poetry, he recommended Human Wishes by Robert Hass, New and Selected Poems by Michael Ryan, The Wild Iris by Louise Gluck (speakers of poems alternate between flowers, humans, and god), and Complete Poems by Alan Dugan.

And for a general tip, he recommended a website where members share their reading lists called goodreads.com (which I promptly joined and then forgot about).

I got ALL the books he recommended (via the librarian husband) so that I could peruse and make a choice at leisure, but now I’ve just finished the first fiction book and enjoyed it enough to consider just holding on to all the books until I’ve read them ALL. That is except for We Need To Talk About Kevin, which looked interesting but the subject matter, a mass teen shooting, seemed too gruesome for pregnancy.

I just finished Joshua Ferris’ debut novel, Then We Came to the End. And while I would give it a B, I have to say that I got a strange maniacal pleasure out reading all about the hyper-pressurized relationships within a corporate ad agency. The story was built around the flimsy water cooler conversations of the of characters with names like Jim Jackers, Marcia Dwyer, Tom Mota, Benny Shassburger, Joe Pope… and it took me nearly to the end of the book to be able to keep all of them distinct. But in a way it didn’t matter, anymore than it matters to keep your own office stories straight – it’s all a way to pass the time in a life that seems outside of life. The more than slightly frenzied feel of the novel felt very contemporary to me. It seemed like a methodology born of being raised with the internet and massive multi-tasking, although in the end the story revealed itself to have a more conventional tie-up-the-loose-ends infrastructure that I hadn’t anticipated. Ferris is also an MFA grad from UCI. Next, I’m jumping into Revere, In Those Days.

And for all the inbetween times, I am reading lots of poetry and loving it. Especially the Dugan. Whew – that man pretty much just opens his coat and shows you everything the way it is. A Bukowski of sorts, but not as crass or as drunk.

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Displacement, Boom, Euphoria, Profit Taking, and Panic

In the once widely-disdained credit cycle proposed by Hyman P. Minsky, we are currently in the panic stage of the housing/mortgage market, and interestingly, John Cassidy of The New Yorker does not blame Bush, but Fed Chief Greenspan for his decisions back in 2003 (and since then).

But as I don’t know much about economics, I’d like to just highlight a couple quotes of interest (The New Yorker; Feb 4, 2008) that raised my eyebrows over my egg burrito this morning:

“According to Dean Baker, the co-director of the Center for Economic and Policy Research, average house prices are falling nationwide at an annual rate of more than ten per cent, something not seen since before the Second World War. This means that American households are getting poorer at a rate of more than two trillion dollars a year.”

and

“It’s hard to say exactly how falling house prices will affect the economy, but recent computer simulations carried out by Frederic Mishkin, a governor at the Fed, suggest that, for every dollar the typical American family’s housing wealth drops in a year, that family may cut its spending by up to seven cents. Nationwide, that adds up to roughly a hundred and fifty-five billion dollars…”

Makes you kinda want to stay home and not spend, doesn’t it?

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Back to Square One

Last month when I was at the La Leche League meeting, one of the mothers referred to her daughter named Sophia, and I started to think that as much as I love the idea of daughters named Beauty and Wisdom (Bella and Sophia), the name Sophia might be too common.

Then Chad came home from a work meeting and showed me this site; it’s a page on national social security administration website that shows popular baby names by year. (Curious that baby names would be a piece of social security information that people would be interested in!) Yup, in 2006, which is the most current data available, Sophia was in the top ten. The name Sophia made it into the top 20 in 2003 and has been gaining in popularity every year since. That means that a kid named Sophia will run into other Sophia’s for the rest of her life.

So now, we’re considering other names: Veronica, Roxanne, Beatrice, Veda…

I’ve gone through every girl name in a book of 10,000 girl names and that’s all we could even barely agree upon. Sophia is not COMPLETELY out of the mix, but its current popularity is a big strike against it.

The boy’s name is settled – but the thought of having a boy is unsettling.

As is the thought that no matter how much I thought Chad and I were making a conscious autonomous name choice, that clearly our tastes are part of a larger social dynamic. Check out your birth year at the same site to see the names of all your friends in grade school!

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More Adventuring and Holy Jim

Well, now that we’ve gotten started, Chad and I have been off exploring two more times. Last Sunday we drove to top of residential hill finally found the dangnabbit trail head, only to discover that it ended only a quarter of a mile away. We were hesitant to check out the scenic view spot because of the crowds of weekend dog-walkers, but then we noticed that people were walking by us and then not ever reappearing. So we peeked over and discovered another trail heading down towards the ocean. Excellent! It was steep and pretty rocky and dusty, but we got a great work out climbing up and down hills to a peak overlooking the south end of Laguna Beach. Turned out that it was the same lookout that Chad had explored previously hiking from his sister Corrina’s old place. That was cool – we love exploring things from both ends. Heh heh, that sounds dirty now that I’ve written it.

Then this weekend we discovered another waterfall to hike to, up off the Holy Jim Trail. It’s not that WE’re so into waterfalls per se, but they do make for a good destination hike. And on the way there we never saw another hiker – so Chad took pics of me and the belly there. He convinced me to keep my undies on, which in retrospect, was a good idea, because now I can share one or two of the photos here.

It was an interesting hike because you first have to drive several miles down a rocky dirt road. The dirt road was called Trabuco Creek Road and was off Trabuco Canyon Road – you’re driving by some major housing developments in total suburbia and then suddenly you’re dropping into a completely wild canyon.

There were quite a few cars parked at the start of the dirt road; we imagined that they were mostly mountain bikers, but we only ever saw one cyclist. After going for miles down this dirt road, the scenery changed from dusty scrub to western forest with lots of overgrown black oak and we passed an old firehouse. This seemed strange because we hadn’t passed any other structures or buildings previously, in fact it had seemed like we going further and further from civilization. But then small, apparently abandoned houses began to appear. And then a few definitely inhabited houses started to show up – Boy when these people hunkered down way back when, they must have really been in the boondocks. It was a curious mixture of cabins and houses, and Chad and I wondered a lot about what kind of people were living out here and what kind of community they must form.

The best part of the hike was that we were really truly in the woods and there were flowers blooming. All we could hear was the wind rushing through the trees, all kinds of birds, frogs, and the burbling of the creek we were following.

We only made it as far as the waterfall, because we needed to be back in ample time to pick Bella up from track practice. But this trail goes on for miles and miles and would probably make for a nice backpack or a 2-car shuttle hike with some prior planning.

We rested a bit at the waterfall, snapped a few pics and then headed back. We had not seen any other hikers the entire day and then on our way back to the car we ran into somebody I knew! She was somebody I had just met at last month’s La Leche League meeting – but what’s funny is that she and I were the only two moms who had attended both meetings in the south OC area last month. What’s more, out of all the women at both meetings, I had felt that she was the most likely candidate for potential friendship: 1) She’d been nursing a toddler and 2) She had a friendly open manner and I was going to tell her that I thought she would make a great LLL leader. To no surprise, she confided to me there on the trail that she had just completed her LLL leader training. We didn’t exchange more than a minute of conversation because we both had our husbands and she had several children tugging at her arm – But standing there in the middle of the woods talking to another nursing mom felt really, really right – and great. It was a serendipitous encounter.

But I am glad we ran into them after my photo shoot by the waterfall, even though I kept some clothes on.

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Adventure Pass

It’s not that often I come upon a place that makes me want to take off all my clothes and ask my husband to start snapping pictures. Unfortunately, my camera was dead, so the photo shoot will have to wait until next time.

Last weekend, Chad and I finally got our butts into gear to check out the Grover Cleveland National Forest, which is about a half-hour drive southeast from here. The small obstacle that had been stumping us was the National Forest Pass, which, comes to find out, is available at any Sports Chalet for $30 a year. Believe me, if you wait to buy it at a ranger’s station, you’ll never get around to exploring any national forest legally. It’s $5 for a day pass, but I’d like to believe that I’ll get back out to a national forest six more times before May 2009…

We drove up the Ortega Highway, past the Upper San Juan Campground, past the Candy Store, and pulled over on a dirt turn-out. From there we could hear rushing water and see the glimmering promise of a waterfall among the tumbled granite and green scrub. Now a hike into a National Forest just off the freeway is a far cry from a hike in the protected thousands of acres of a National Park – meaning, that the trails from the dirt turn-out were many, narrow, and occasionally littered with reminders of ill-mannered hikers: cigarette butts, soda cans, water bottles. Unimpressive and forgettable graffiti was spray-painted on any flat rock surface like flamboyant cheap trail markers. But sometimes the strength of the wild outdoors makes human detritus look insignificant and ephemeral.

Here, with every step further from asphalt, there were more wild flowers springing up in bunches of hot pink, bobbing trumpets of purple, and sprawls of yellow; small visual treasures framed by the heady fragrance of crushed black sage. Ahead we could see the glinting gray-silver stones rising up, oblivious to all the petty human tromping and careless beer can crushing at their feet.

What trail we followed was not very well-maintained, likely because it was not a trail at all, and I was surprised at how much my sense of balance had changed since my last hike. My boots slipped in the eroded dirt and I clung on to each passing rock face. Chad seemed more sprightly and goat-like than ever, ahead and behind, making sure I was safe before bounding off again. I didn’t mind inching my way downhill; it gave me plenty of face time with delicate blooms and their intricate shapes.

At the bottom of the ravine we were rewarded with an absolutely clear babbling brook flowing from a small pool in the rocks. Avoiding the other hiking party around the corner (they were hiking with beer cans in hand), we scrambled up through boulders to the shallow pool and found a spot where we could eat a few snacks in the light spray of a delightful waterfall. It’s worth a thousand bucks, I’m sure, the revitalization you get from breathing the heady oxygenated air around a waterfall, even a small one. Just a few minutes here made me realize what I missed about living in Joshua Tree: that easy access to the outside, to the wilderness. Sure, there’s plenty of green in Laguna Niguel, but so much of it is manicured and primped. Chad and I just sat and rested. We talked in low voices and Chad began exploring the possibilities of climbing the side of the waterfall. Then we decided to head up the bank and see how far up we could follow the water. With very minor heart palpitations, I climbed up after Chad, taking far too much time I’m sure, to find secure footing with every step.

In the end, it didn’t take much to be at the top of the waterfall, looking down. The wind was channeled through the narrow passageway here, whistling and reminding me of that spot in Rattlesnake Canyon where Chad had proposed almost two years ago now. After some more snacks, Chad took off for more exploring, and I just sat on the smooth boulders, right by the edge of the water. I sat and I thought about coming back and spending time here with our new kid later this summer.

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Flavorgirl to the Rescue!

I happened to be on the phone with my friend Maya tonight while I was cooking – what a happy coincidence for me. Her superhero name is Flavorgirl because she knows so much about food and cooking healthfully; not only does she grow her own veggies, but she has worked at times as a personal chef and also in the organic kitchen of Not-Back-To-School Camp.

Tonight I was admitting to her that I had never once used the bunches of radishes that have been coming with my bi-weekly CSA basket (Community-Supported Agriculture) the last couple of months. Over the phone she started reading from her new favorite cookbook – the one by Mark Bittman of the New York Times – all about radishes. About how they are related to turnips and can be cooked accordingly. Then she read a braised radish recipe out loud while I immediately jumped up to get my radishes out of the fridge. I had had no idea that radishes could be cooked.
They turned out delicious! In fact, they were the best part of dinner (steamed cod, brown/white rice and broccoli) and I will be making more braised radishes next week when I hopefully get another bunch of radishes with my new CSA basket.

And if you save the radish greens you can make a delicious green enchilada sauce, that I made once with Maya here.

Braised Radishes (from memory)

1 pound radishes, trimmed

1/4 c chicken stock (happily I had a cup left over from last week’s roast chicken)

1 tbs basalmic vinegar

1 tsp sugar

butter

salt and pepper to taste

1. Saute the radishes briefly in the butter.

2. Add the rest of the ingredients and cover the pan.

3. Cook until tender.

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Just When I Was About to Get On With My Life

We finished the last episode of Season 3 of Battlestar Galatica last night – that show is scarily addictive. I love that the show is really about dealing with the underlying questions that might arise if there were less than 50,000 humans remaining in the universe and how to roll the hard six. I think religion is handled well too – as a mixture of truth and myth, but mainly there to inspire hope in a general collective. We are just in time for the final remaining season, which begins this week on the sci-fi channel.

I was just rolling up my sleeves to get back to my desk, my computer, my blog, my writing, my bills….

When my husband sent me a link to a highly addictive game called Excit. It is a simple game of logic; all you have to do is move your cursor with your keyboard arrows until you reach the exit. The trick is that once the cursor starts moving, it will continue to move until it bumps into a wall – what happens is a cerebral maze that will slowly draw you in with increasingly complicated scenarios. If you enjoy problem-solving, STAY AWAY FROM THIS GAME.

Or ignore my warning and try it here.

This is what it looks like after you’ve played a level or two. I’m trying to get the cursor to the green exit door -going through MIS gets you extra points… Hmmm, the picture doesn’t look as fun as it really is.

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